Commitment

After working for more than 10 years, I have been told by a colleague that I have actually contracted with a kind of 'professional' disease. I was informed that I have issues with commitment. The thing is, my issues is not about my unwillingness to commit, but it was to the other extreme. Apparently, I am overcommitted. Because of this, many perceived my enthusiasm and overcommitment as aggression, harshness, disrespectfulness and some even claim as sheer arrogance.

The think is, I don't think I am like that at all. I have to say I do have a very high energy level (of which, I don't think my wife would agree given how much contribution I had when it comes to house chores), but I am truly concern about delivering what people expect you to it. I have this inexplicable tendencies to please people with my work. I mean, when people expect certain deliverables out of me, I put my utmost passion into the tasks that I sometimes tend to be aggressive if things does go my way.

Maybe it's about time to tone down. I am getting older......

Major disappointment

I was truly upset with my son Luke yesterday. Not only because he lied to his mother and me about him bringing ALL his piggy bank savings to school yesterday, but also because of his intention to show off to his friends how much money he has.

I felt really, really disappointed because Honesty and Humility are few of the virtues that I uphold very very closely in my heart. When I was young I have seen too much of lying and 'self-promotion'/arrogance around me to the extent that I will naturally react with repelling behaviour towards those who lacked such qualities. The thing is, I just cannot believe that my son was doing it. Of course he got some very major scolding from me but that does not compensate for the disappointment I felt.

To make things worse, he was almost 'mugged' by one of the school bullies at school, whom I suspect, could have seen him holding that much money.

The truth is, I am more disappointed with myself for not being able to pass down the virtues well to my kids. Maybe, I have not been praying hard enough to God for my kids to embrace these virtues.

Lazy Bum

I have been very determined to go back to exercise regime for the last couple of weeks and so far, I have not been able to go anywhere near to my gym. But today, I was very, very close to finally realising that resolution.

But then when it was time to go, suddenly my bum becomes very, very lazy.... No wonder my stomach is getting bigger. Never mind, tomorrow I shall go to the gym :) ...... that is unless my bum does not go back to the standby mode 'again'!

Sore Loser

I have been in a very foul mood for the last couple of days. The reason? .......Federer lost his Wimbledon title.

Get a life Luke!

Wimbledon

Venus Won! I am such a huge fan of the girl. I think when she is at her best, she is almost indestructible. Frankly, even though people said that Serena is the better player, my preference will always be with Venus. She has this mature disposition and hardly display any signs of anguish during her match, even though she is one point from losing. So, kudos to the big sister and to the little sister, grow up! Did you read her comments during the press conference. What a sore loser.

Tonight will be the men's final. I do have tough time in deciding who I will support. My heart goes to Federer for the superb payer he is, but at the same time, I also want Nadal to win merely because for his on and off-court persona. I think both of them really displays what professional tennis is all about. You can be the very fierce competitors on court, but off-court, you can remain friends and polite to each other. I particularly like the way Nadal commented about his thrashing of Federer during the recent French Open final. Despite showing a far superior game, he was very respectful of his opponents and remain polite and respectful with his comments. Even though I know Nadal is very, very competitive on court, he some how manage to charm his way with his polite and respectful demeanor towards his opponents. I guess that's why my wife is a die-hard fan of Nadal.

Only if our leaders can learn a thing or two from these guys.....

Disgusted!

Frankly, I don't know what's up with Malaysia nowadays. ever since Tun Mahathir stepped down from the highest post, everything began to crumble. From escalating prices, to shaky racial unity, corrupted politicians and the ever-so-dramatic so called leader of the opposition of Anwar Ibrahim (AI).

Talk about Mr AI, I used to have such a huge respect for this guy. He portrayed this image of a new, young and dynamic Muslim that has all it takes to bring the nation to a greater height. Then, came the Sep 1998 episode where he was sacked from the top post, apparently for f***ing someone's a***. I wasn't a total believer of the whole incidence because deep in my heart, I truly believed that he was set-up and thought that all of these are part of the political games that Mahathir put in order to oust his then ever-increasingly-popular deputy. (I have to say, I wasn't a great fan of Mahathir either but I have a lot of respect for the guy for what he has done for Malaysia).

During the recent election, I thought the results served the ruling party right because it really echoed the voice of the people for the blatant display of corruption of some of the top officials. I was emphatic of AI and wish him all the best in his political come back.

However, he lost his support from me with his series of action after the big win. There were many dubious statements and actions by him which I felt was in total contradiction of what he was before and what he was really fighting for. It was so blatant that I begin to doubt his political agenda - is he really fighting for his people rights or is he the guy who will do anything just to be Malaysia's PM? I am beginning to see that things will be heading towards major screw-ups if he is in power.

The funny thing is indeed he was. But then again, I didn't expect that instead of screwing up the government, he screw somebody's a*** up first. I thought the whole episode was very funny. Maybe he was just practising :) . But true to what the opposition has been doing lately, things become such a big drama. First, there was the political asylum thing, then there were allegations bantering where the suing and counter-suing ensues.

Don't these people realise that there are actually other REAL issues that need to be addressed. What about the rising cost of living and addressing people's woes? Don't you guys get it, creating one drama after another is NOT solving our problems! I am truly ashamed of the so-called leaders we have in Malaysia. Maybe they all deserve the screwing by one another.

In the meantime, I am surfing the net to find a country that I can seek 'economic' asylum. From I am seeing, looks like Timbuktu should be a good place to migrate.

And for the record, I still don't believe that AI did all those things he was alleged for. But somehow, I was not as emphatic as before. Maybe, he deserved it.

Wallahu'alam.