A little 'Pick-me-up'

I have to say that I have been quite down for the last couple of days. Mainly because of work overload and the demands on me that barely pass the 'reasonableness' test. In most of the time, I will find within me things that will continue to motivate me but nowadays, that self-motivation mechanism is verging on a breakdown.

I think God must have loved me so much that just when I was about to spiral down further, I receive an email from my confidant that puts me back on track again. The email was not one of those long and wordy words of encouragement but a rather sweet and simple quotation that somehow hugely overhauls the key component of my self-motivation mechanism.

Sometimes we don't realise that you can touch people in ways that you don't even realise. Thanks Superchica for the thoughts. I will forever etch those words in my heart.

I am tired!!!

For the past couple of days, a lot of people has been making remarks on me saying that I look tired. I too feel the exhaustion and after pondering for a while, it dawns on me what really makes me feel tired. So here goes...

I am tired of solving other people's problem. Don't they think that they too have brains that I am sure, if given just some marginal effort, it can work too.

I am tired of people having high expectation on me. Don't they know that I am only a human being and it doesn't mean that whenever my name is in the team, all problems can be solved!

I am tired of being the 'Aunt Agony' of people around me. Don't they realise that I too have problems on my own that even I don't know who I confide my innermost fears and insecurities.

I am tired of making decisions for people who do not want to do so out of pure hesitance of taking accountability should things got screwed up. Don't they ever wonder how they should be earning all those monthly credits to their bank account and what it really means.

I am tired of being nice to people whom they themselves are not nice to other people. Do they really expect that people can still be nice to you despite you being a total a***hole to them?

I am tired of having to justify all of my actions to people while some a**hole can get away with murder. Don't they see that when I do things, I always put my best intentions for them. Just because you have had bad experience and you can generally labeled everybody as conman!

Finally, I am tired of being tired for all these things. Why don't people just leave me alone. So everybody just get the f***-off of my back.

The End!

Headless Chicken, that's me!

Ever since I got back from my family vacation, I have been running around like headless chicken. Suddenly, there are so many things to be done in such a short time. To make things worst, I am currently involved in two concurrently high profile, tight-deadline projects involving highly sensitive areas. In fact, I just came back from a week long outstation stint, which eventually left me truly exhausted yesterday.

Today, as I entered into my office, a string of people is queueing to see me. In a way, I felt like the most sought after person in the company, but in many ways, I felt I am being exploited by my company to deliver what others cannot deliver.

I think I better start pondering my 'martyr'-like approach in my work because, I am feeling a lot of people in taking credit of my work. Not that I mind it that much, but when it was done blatantly in front of your face, you can't help but get annoyed for such display of arrogance.

Yesterday, I got a good man-to-man session with my nephew, Ifus, on the virtues of corporate life and the thing that you need to do to progress in your career. Now, I think I need to reevaluate the advice given....